Dear Migraine,
How nice of you to pay a call today. Again. You’ve been my constant companion now for seven days straight. Quite frankly, I’m really growing tired of your company. You’re there when I wake in the middle of the night, you’re there when I go to bed; you’re there first thing in the morning, too.
I’ve tried everything to get you to go away. Prescription medication—it works for a while, but two hours later you’re back again. Over the counter stuff with way more caffeine in it than I need. It rarely works, and always leaves me with that jittery, over-caffeinated feeling. Niacin, that lovely B3 vitamin that makes me feel flushed and warm and makes the tips of my ears burn. Sometimes that will make you go away. But so far nothing has sent you the message to go away and stay away.
What is it this time? Stress? Hormones? Changes to the barometric pressure? What brought you to my doorstep this week? I’d really love to know so I could do something about it. I realize we see more of each other in the summer than we do in winter, but this is ridiculous. We're simply spending way too much time together.
You realize, of course, that when you come all I want to do is lie in a darkened room with an ice pack on my head (don’t feel bad, my mother has much this same effect on me and it doesn’t stop her from visiting, either.) But I can’t do that. My life can’t stop because of you. I’m a mom, I have a job, and a house to keep up. Yet you manage to suck all the joy out of life anyway. I can’t read, the words blur and dance on the page even with my glasses on, so reading to my babies at bedtime is out. I can’t watch TV—the lights are too bright and the moving images make me feel even more dizzy and nauseous than I already do. I can’t do half the things I'd like to, and certainly not with my usual energy. Even the act of walking across the room is painful, every foot fall slams into my brain like a brick wall. Even if I tiptoe. But I’m stubborn so I don’t give in to your demands. I tough it out, until I can tough it no more. I head to bed early, hoping a good night’s sleep will send you packing. I wake in the night, feeling somewhat better and hope that you’ll be gone when morning arrives.
No such luck.
Thus has been the pattern now for seven agonizing, painful days.
I hope you’ll take this message in the spirit it was intended, migraine, and not be offended. We go back a long way, after all--more years than I care to remember. And really migraine, it's not you--it's me. I'm just not that into you. I'd say we can still be friends but there's just too much water under the bridge for that. I think a clean break is best. For both our sakes.
So go away. And don’t come back anytime soon.
Nic
7 comments:
Hugs, Nicole.
My doc says I don't have migraines but whatever they're called, I get a lot of pretty bad headaches. Unfortunately, my day job boss doesn't believe me and thinks I'm just lying to get the day off when I plead a bad headache. I hope he never finds out for himself what these things feel like and that his boss doesn't believe him.
I hope you feel better soon and stay better.
Oh how awful!
Sending big hugs. :)
Wish I knew of a miracle cure for migraines. Hang in there!
Hope you feel better soon!
I promise, ladies, I'm feeling much better. I've spent the past couple of days doing some research to try and figure out how to prevent migraines, rather than just treat them when they come. I'll let you know what I find out.
Thanks for your kind words of support!
Ashley, I hope you find relief from your headaches soon (do you notice if you're really tired the day before one hits? That's a good indicator of a migraine coming on). My migraines weren't diagnosed until I was in my 30s because they don't present like a typical migraine, but boy what a difference it makes when you have something you can take to help.
Hugs to all of you for your kind thoughts!
You poor dear. Glad you're feeling better but praying for the departure of migraines permanently!
Google asked me to start a new blog, it's at http://monyamaryclayton.blogspot.com I'm also trying not to get lost in the Amazon jungle.
Admired your new website. I still don't have one.
Monya
It's probably your laundry detergent or some other synthetic fragrances you use in products in your home--these have neurotoxins in them. Best of luck!
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